01 January 2016

In Loving Memory of Frankie Koay.

I finally got some time to sit down and think of what I want to write for this special someone. It has been three days since the passing of Adrian's daddy. It's afternoon now on the second day of the funeral and friends/families usually do not come at this hour so I find myself a corner furthest away from the small crowd under a canopy that shields the deadly sunlight from my already-char-huey-tah-skin. 

If I may be real honest here, I would like to share some raw thoughts on Uncle Frankie. No one has ever known or heard this from me. Not even Koay. 

When I first met Adrian's family, I was excited and nervous at the same time. Prior to to the meet, I know that his family practices Buddhism and I never have a problem with that. My only struggle (at that time) was knowing that his dad was a bit against Christianity (reasons will not be mentioned here of course) and I am a Christian so yes, I was afraid that our relationship may not be approved or receive their blessings because Adrian and I have different beliefs (at that time before Adrian encountered Jesus) and yes I was scared that his parents will not like me as much. 

I was wrong. From day one, Uncle Frankie has treated me like his own daughter. Whenever we have family dinner, he will always suggest More More Thai (our favorite Thai restaurant) because Adrian told him that I'm a big fan of Thai food. Even when he is tired, he will still make the effort to play few rounds of mahjong whenever I'm at his house. I'm blessed for sure.

Read on, the best part is coming :)

Uncle Frankie has always been a healthy person despite having to go through dialysis three times a week. He had always eat rightly and exercise whenever he has the energy to. Can you believe it that he has gone through the 4-hours-of-dialysis for 11 years now?

It is sad that this time when a bacteria infected him, his body was too weak to fight against and that led to many other complications. It is heartbreaking, but I know he is now safe with Jesus. He is most likely dancing and singing with the angels in Heaven now. Party all day long. Heh. 

When Adrian became a Christian years ago, his dad was one of those people that he felt/thought will not be so approving of this decision. Turns out, his dad was the most supportive and even followed him to church a few times. Even then, Uncle Frankie remains a Buddhist. 

Adrian prays with his dad and mom every night before they go to bed and that has been a culture that both his parents adapt with. So, normally they will always gather either in the living room or his parents room to pray then they will say goodnight and I love you. 

His parents, most supportive bunch ever. 

When Adrian first asked his dad if he could go through the water baptism, his dad answered him, "Maybe not yet." So, Adrian waited for about another year and asked his dad again. This time, his dad gave the permission and both his dad and mom attended his water baptism and rejoiced with him. That was a memorable day. 

Did you know that on the day we bid the final goodbye to Uncle Frankie, the day his body was turned into ashes, that was also the same day Adrian was baptized, exactly a year ago? Talk about God's perfect timing hah. 

Anyways, when Uncle Frankie was admitted into the hospital, he was in and out of consciousness every now and then and his body was weak. There was one morning where he woke up and told Adrian to gather his mom and sister to be at the hospital. 

As soon as they came, he had asked for their permission to accept Christ as his personal Savior and then Pastor Joseph came and led him on a sinner's prayer. He also went through water baptism okay. This is an amazing story because Uncle Frankie used to be known as someone whom doesn't like Christianity. You cannot even mention about it in front of him. 

Despite all that, he had asked to accept Christ and now we all know he is in Heaven, painless. 

Death is never an easy chapter, especially when it's someone so important to you. 

Hi Uncle Frankie, 

It's been a blessing to me and my family ever since we knew you about three years ago. I am so thankful that my friends even got the chance to know you when they all went over to the house for CNY gathering. 

I am very sad that you won't be there when Adrian and I make our vows, or spoil our children like any grandparents would. I am very sad that I never got the chance to call you father and be a good daughter in law. I am very sad that my children will never get to feel your hugs and kisses and know you like how Wallace and Chloe did. 

But it's all okay because I know that you are where God wants you to be, in His arms with no more dialysis and no more tubes in and out of your body. 

We miss you and we always will. We will see you again in Heaven one day :)

Singing off, your daughter in law to be.

31 December 2015

Goodbye 2015.

Today is the last day of 2015 and I thought it will be nice to do like a summary of the entire year like how I did for last year

Nah, I'm not going to do it. 

I'm too lazy and un-motivated.


Maybe I will do one in January, when things get exciting. Hm. 

Blessed New Year's Eve, humans. 

See you all next year :)

22 December 2015


I do miss this place a lot. 

Too much kind of a lot, but so many things are happening now that I cannot really find the time to sit down and blog. 

What I do know is that at the end of the day, God is still good. 

Yesterday, today and everyday of my life, God will always be a good God.

God's princess signing off. Yes, that's what my name really means :)

11 December 2015

Koay's Love Language #11.

This week has been the busiest week for me and as much as I wanted it to be over as soon as possible, that also means I'll have to go through with it and survive. 

For him, it was one of those weeks where he can relax a bit but still he's always busy since he loves what he does so much. 

Job - 1, Fiance - 0.

Sometime this week, he made plans to go down to KL with a friend for more work-related matters under his annual leave mind you. So, that basically means that we will only see each other once for the next 14-days or so since I'll be leaving to camp soon. 

The timing was right on Wednesday when I will fly back to Penang from KL, and him, to KL from Penang, all on the same day. 

We made plans to meet up a while at the airport, just to have a glance on each other. Overly attached couple alert. Hah. 

I arrived at the airport and called him.

Me: Mister, where are you? I just landed.
Him: I'm here already. 
Me: I go upstairs Departure Hall meet you ah? You wait at McD or something lah. 
Him: No no. You just come out, can see me d.
Me: Ahh, okay okay. 

I walked out and did not see any Muthu at the domestic arrival hall. I called him again to check if he was at the right place. Serious. 

Once, we were supposed to meet at the hospital for something ( I cannot remember what). We agreed to meet at the canteen but after long calls and stuff, we realized we were both in a different hospital!

So yeah. 

Him: I didn't see you coming out also.
Me: What? I'm out like so out d okay. 
Him: OHHH! I was waiting at the International Arrival Hall! G!
Me: G!

His plan to 'receive' me failed but puts a big smile on my face that night. 

We had quick dinner at Airport's KFC and bid farewell. So drama alright. HAHA!

09 December 2015

Wedding Update 3: Engagement Photoshoot.

I think planning a wedding is stressful. No wait. Who am I kidding? Planning a wedding is stressful. I don't think it is. It obviously is. We had the opportunity to plan our friend's wedding together recently and I felt that, that has given us a good platform to see things differently now. So yes, I do think that God works on a perfect timing :)

Despite the 'experience' that we had, there's nothing like planning own wedding. The stress level is brought up to 1,000 times more, and as much as people have already warned us about the 'confirm will argue phase', it didn't like make things easier also.

We still argue hard and loud. Heh. 

Two months into being engaged, we have so far confirmed the venues and got our dates blocked. DOUBLE YAY!

The other thing that is very important is getting the right people, the right team to be in charge of capturing all the lovely moments, both before and during the big day. Yes, I am obviously talking about photography. I hope we can afford to do videography but we will have to see about that later. Budget is the only subject I wish I don't have to talk about. Hah. 

Can you imagine my excitement when we have finally confirmed the team who will be doing on our pre-wedding photoshoot engagement?


They are called onemustardseed.

Some of my favorite shots from their FB page here.

They are based in OZ Land but guess what? No distance is too far for them to help you make your wedding the most meaningful day ever. 

I can't wait for the photoshoot already yeah. 

One less stress, yesssss!

07 December 2015

When You Say Nothing At All - Arden Cho

I like this version, a lot. 

If not, it won't be here. Heh. 

02 December 2015

That Coach Box.

There was this one day when my heart stopped for a mili-second. 

I had just came home, and after putting my bag on the dining chair, I walked straight to my room to remove the watch and ring, and to get ready for a warm shower. 

The first thing that caught my eye when I switched on the light was this.

Yes, at that moment, I straight terkejut gila. I have immediately jumped into the conclusion that both my parents had bought this and they decided to surprise me like that.

Okay, wait. I think many of you may not be able to see clearly of the box. Here's a closer look!

Since I know that they read my blog, where I mentioned about wanting to own this bag sometime ago but I definitely do not have the money to own one now. I HOPE THEY DO READ MY BLOG LA! THEY BETTER OKAY! Hah. 

Anyways, when I saw this, I literally just stopped breathing. My parents are always up with surprises when they buy something for us that we really want.

There was once when I wanted to own my own phone and I wanted one with like flip cover phone. So, I saved money but I could only afford a normal phone with no flip whatsoever. 

One morning I was still sleeping and all of them walked into my room and woke me up. When I opened my eyes, they passed me a box and when I had finally open it up, there it was. 


So, I thought this was a similar experience and boy, I am not complaining at all! Heh. 

So when the perfect-not-dented-box was laid on my pile of clothes, I had my 'OH MY GOODNESS' moment. 

I even held the box up to make sure it's not an empty box and it was heavy. Not like super heavy or what but there's weight on it.

I stood there for a while, with my heart racing oh so fast punyalah F1 driving style.


I opened it up slowly.


Sorry no photos because I just totally forgot about taking photos after seeing its content.

Can you all just take a guess ah?

Come on. 

I give you all 1 try. 

I some more held my breath so long when I opened it. FUNNY LAH.

It was a box filled with mom's Christmas ornaments.


I had the second longest 'WHATTTTTT' of my life in my room. 

Definition of putting hopes too high to only have it crushed to the floor. Heh. 

After that straight no mood for hot shower already. Quick shower got lah. Hah. Oh myyy. I guess that was the closest feeling I felt to owning this one. Heh. 

This is madness.

Anyways, yeah. I wonder how many of you actually experienced the same thing? Like the content is not what you want it to be and stuff. SO BAD RIGHT THE FEELING. 

When I think of it again, I confirm will laugh, like now. Oh myy. Dumb dumb me.