Showing posts with label Relationships. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Relationships. Show all posts

04 January 2024

This is for you, Vanessa Khoo.

We took this selfie because her office building is in the background somewhere. 

I have been wanting to write and dedicate this post to my sister since she moved to another country, but I could not do it without the heavy heart feeling and without crying. It was a painful adjustment, but here I am, and here it goes. 


*Sasa, you can go take tissue first, because I know you sure cry no matter what I say hah*


When she first told us about a job opportunity in Singapore, I was not 100% supportive. I was probably only 60% for it, but when we found out that she has always wanted to live an independent life like how this job would give, I forced myself to give her my 100%. 


When Vanessa left for Singapore, she brought a part of me with her. We have always been that clingy-overly attached trio (with Rachel). So, her moving away was a difficult one. It was a tough reality. I supported her decision, because why would I hold her back, just because it's going to be difficult. She wanted this for herself, and we are 100% behind her. 


She adjusted very well (with loads of tears for sure) there, but for me to adjust to our new norm without her, I needed a 'closure'. Okaylah, I won't call it closure. So drama like break-up ni. It was more like I need to move on happily. Hah. It does sound like a break-up and closure. 


But anyways. 


I needed to see what her new life is like. I needed to see that she's happy and well, despite the homesickness. That was my main reason for the recent trip. Because if she was not happy and really miserable, I would do everything I can to get her back, to convince her to come home. 


But she's happy, and thankful, and thriving. 


The trip to Singapore was almost a no-go, but I am really glad that we did it. Now, I can imagine being there with her, even though I am not. It’s a very complicated feeling, which I don’t love. I saw where she worked at, her daily commute, the type of food she eats, and the neighbourhood. If I could go see her office cubicle or table and sit on the chair she sits in office, I would. Hah. Told you I am overly attached. 


Vanessa Khoo Yoong May. 


I am extremely proud of you ♥️ You have grown to become an amazing woman who continues to give selflessly and loves so graciously to people around you. Singapore is now more 'majulah' and blessed because you are there. 


You are strong and you did the one thing I would never be able to do. You left a very comfortable place, and go on an adventure that you have always wanted. When you wake up every morning in this foreign land, know that you did it. 


What you did is difficult. It's impossible for me even. Leaving us, your friends, your safest place, your support system, your chicken rice is tough, but you did it. 


I want to tell you, that even though you are younger than me, you are my role model in many areas. I have so many things to learn from you, the way you live your life and how you love. Both you and Rachel are my role models, in different areas. This is why I am very blessed ♥️


So yes, both Adrian and I are very proud of you. Dad and mom are proud of you. Kah Wei and Rachel are proud of you. I can say that on their behalf because we are super proud of you. 


Sha Lynn, Daryl, Alex, Sofia and Adam miss you everyday. And you miss us terribly, for sure. But please don't feel bad about missing out on family events, and doing fun things with us. Singapore is just a plane ticket away. Heh. Your currency is 3.5 times more powerful, so still doable. Heh. 


But seriously, don't worry about us here. We will be okay. We will make this LDR work. 


Also, if one day you have enough of your adventure, and there is no reason for you to stay in Singapore, just pack your bags and come home. Home is always here for you. No matter how long it takes. 


Do I secretly wish you don't find your soulmate who lives in Singapore? Yes. But I want you to be happy. Know that we are always praying for you. 


Love you long long time, little sister. 


Majulah Singapure, and Malaysia Boleh.

08 November 2023

Forgiveness.

Forgiveness. 

One of the most difficult thing a human must do. 

Regardless of your race, forgiveness is difficult. A choice that each one of us must intentionally make. 

It's been that kind of season for me. 

I thought that these things only happen in teen years, but it's actually a norm in the adult life. You get judged no matter what you do. People don't give grace. Maybe we should not expect grace, I don't know. 

I didn't think I needed to write this and although it may look like I am on a defensive mode, I am actually doing this for me. I am doing this so I can have my closure, and I can go towards forgiveness. 

It's been a ride since I got pregnant with Adam. My skin condition is not a secret. I also don't expect people to give me sympathy. I wasn't looking for it either. I shared about it because I know there would be people out there going through a similar thing with me, and it will help to connect with them and go through it together. Little did I know, what I had was rare. 

Most people recovered after their baby came out. Mine didn't. It affected me mentally. I was on a pause with God. Still, I didn't expect nor did I want sympathy from people. 

I was also already a mom to 2 young toddlers. YOUNG TODDLERS. 

They want our attention most of the time, and they get cranky when they get sleepy or hungry, and they both have different personalities, and love language. I love our lil big family, but they are a lot. They take up a lot of energy and mental space. 

I was fighting my own physical battle, mom-guilt battle and at the same time, giving what I can and have to my career. I was falling sick a lot more than I wanted (obviously! Who wants to be sick?). Try being sick and still having to be a mom 100% at home. It takes all of you. It sucks big time!

I have gone through this "drama" before in my teen years, and I have had someone coming up to me to apologize, years after he heard certain things about me that was not true but he took it like they were true, only to find out that all the things told to him by our mutual friends, were out of context and all lies. 

After so many years, he came up to me and said he was sorry, that he should have approached me and asked. It mended our friendship instantly, and even though we don't see each other often now, we remained good friends. 

It's that season, like I said. 

Things were said about me, behind my back and out of context. When I first heard about it, I was hurt, upset and shocked. They didn't know the reason to what I did. They didn't bother asking me. They assumed and created their own story to portray me to be someone I am not. 

The hurtful part was not even how they portray me to be, and spreading them like hot cakes. It was the fact that they did it as if we don't have a friendship. As if I'm an enemy that they intend to bring down. There were no conversations with me about it. Zero. 

They just think it's the most mature thing to do and that is to just tell everyone they know that Sarah is like this because she did this. They didn't even know why I had to do it, or if I actually wanted to do what I did. 

I hoped for grace, and understanding. But clearly I was not on the same page, and that was my fault to assume that they would give me some grace, and walk alongside me. 

I had many anxiety attacks this year, and what made it tougher to overcome was the fact that when I am with my children, I try my absolute best to put a front so I could be the kind of mom they need now. I don't always successfully do it. Adrian stepped in a lot to help. But the anxiety attacks don't wait for the 'perfect time' to come. They just come as and when. For a few months, I felt like I was drowning. Heh. 

The things that were said about me, they didn't hurt me. Because there were no truths in them. I had valid reasons and I am going to live with that. I shared my story, and that's because I feel like everyone deserved to know. I cried before I even began telling the whole story. 

It was that difficult. 

But I knew that to start forgiving people, it starts with that. It starts with me being vulnerable with the team. With the people. 

I am thankful for close friends who have stood by me, despite hearing things about me. They are not parents (yet), but they understood my struggles, and they helped carry my weights. My family has always been 100% there, and never out of the picture. My sisters are God-sent. Talking to them lifts a certain weight off. My husband is hands down, the most understanding and honest man I even know. He is never too afraid to tell me the truth, and loves me harder when I am not that lovable. 

You can keep saying what you want, even without knowing the context, but just know that you shouldn't. It's not right. God wouldn't be pleased. When someone, especially when they are a friend, I recommend going up to them and have a conversation. It will do you more good, then putting an assumption and hurt people along the way. You want to build people up, not tear them apart. You want to be the reason for people to smile, and not cry. 

I am still hurt. I am finding it humanly difficult to forgive. But I want to move on. I want to prioritize what matters now, and unfortunately it is not these rumors, and it's not how I want to live my life. 

This is a closure for me. This is the final chapter on this book. I will move on, and I will forgive you. 

If you have heard things about me and you are unsure, talk to me okay? You can hear my side of story before making up your own. I promise I won't bite you. 

I've learned that forgiveness is a choice. It is personal and it is meant for me (not for them). Forgiving people is hard and it is not forgetting. Forgiving someone also does not mean that you approve of what they did. You can forgive someone and know that what they did was not okay. Forgiveness is also not trust. Forgiving them doesn't mean you can trust them completely again, but it can be rebuild of course. 

For those of you who is finding hard to forgive, start by finding a way to have a closure. It helps me. And I hope it will help you. I think even with a closure, it will take some time to forgive a person entirely, but you will get there. We will get there eventually. 

Side note: if you think my IG stories doesn't benefit you, or it makes you upset, or it annoys you - please don't continue to follow it. It is absolutely fine! I will not hold it against you. To be honest, I never check who follows or unfollows me. I don't care actually. If you think you like to see my daily boring contents, then I hope you will find joy in them. If not, it is perfectly okay to unfollow me :) 

Till next time, bye now. 

13 April 2020

Koay's Love Language #42.


We were having a breakfast conversation this morning and I was handling Sofia's car seat.

Me: I think right - next time for sure Sofia won't be scared of me wan.
Him: Why eh?
Me: Alex for sure will listen to me like now since so close right. But Sofia..
Him: Hm..
Me: Because Sofia is your precious girl and you will protect her wan so she won;t be scared of me.
Him: But I am scared of you.

BOTH BURST OUT LAUGHING.

22 May 2018

Koay's Love Language #40 - #41.

#40
Him: Ayo, started raining heavy again (while getting ready for work).
Me: Why? Your car no roof ah?
Him: Nolah, scared later my wife cannot fit under the umbrella!
Me: YOU DID NOT JUST OKAY THAT CARD MISTER!

#41
Him:Baby, I cheated on you.
Me: What? You ate Kayu's nasi kandar, didn't you?
Him: HAHAHA yeah I cannot resist.
Me: Tsk tsk tsk.
Him: Jack is my cheat-mate (or mistress)! HAHAHA. 

17 April 2018

Koay's Love Language #39.

After the doctors confirmed that I have this thing called Gestational Diabetes..

Him: I will not eat what you're not allowed to eat also okay. We go through this together okay.
Me: Awww. How sweet of you.

Few days later..

Him: *drinking chocolate milk and eating my Cheerios*
Me: I'm not allowed to drink chocolate milk..
Him:Mmhmm. That's why I drink lo. If not waste ma.
Me: What happens to, "I will not eat what you're not allowed to eat also".
Him: *selective hearing*


10 March 2018

Koay's Love Language #38.

Me: Can we go for another baby-moon in Penang?
Him: Nope.
Me: Just hotel stay in Penang only. No need to go out wan.
Him: Nope.
Me: One-night stay nia!
Him: Nope.
Me: *Hormonal tears lai liau*

HAHA.

I want another baby-moon!

26 February 2018

Koay's Love Language #35 - #37


#35
We went to Kapitan for lunch and ordered their famous must-eat-tandoori chicken and claypot chicken briyani. This man obviously used his hands to enjoy his tandoori chicken and washed it off afterwards.

Me: Oh mannn. Look at your fingers! So orange leh. All that coloring. G! Maybe our son becomes bit orange-y today.
Him: *smiles widely* Sure kena jaundice d like that.
Me: *secretly thinking inside my head that he doesn't really know what causes jaundice & secretly judging him* HAHAHA.

#36
He was saying our every-night-before-sleep-prayer.

Him: Lord, we want to thank you for this baby that's inside Sarah's stomach..
Me: *opens my eyes widely with eyebrows raised*
Him: *continues praying with eyes closed* God, we ask that You would protect and give great health to our baby boy inside this stomach.. *continues to pray for other people*
Me: *opens eyes widely again*
Him: In Jesus name we pray, amen.

After the prayer ended..

Me: You know that the baby is not inside my stomach, right? *judging eyes*
Him: I know la. It's in the womb okay.
Me: Oh phew. I thought you didn't know. PFS student ma, you never know HAHAHA.

#37
Him: From now onwards, you cannot take any red meat already ya. Only eat chicken and fish everyday.
Me: GG like that. 

14 April 2017

Koay's Love Language #23 - #33.

"Don't bathe in so hot water ah!"

"You cannot eat too spicy anymore"

"Eat your folic acid d?"

"We need to buy those pregnant people always wear kind of shoes. Very thick and good wan"

*says thank-you prayer to our Maker every night for giving us little dot*

"You must eat more cooked salmon because it's good for the baby"

"Eh, you can start doing Sudoku already. Good for baby also wan"

"Morning my babies"

"When you reach 3 months, you will look like you're in 8-months!"

"You eat d?"

*puts his hand on my belly in the middle of the night and continues to fall asleep*


#sixweekstoday

12 January 2017

Koay's Love Language #22.

Him: *reading an article on FB* When you are pregnant, I'm going to keep feeding you with salmon and cod fish. It is said that its very good for the baby..
Me: *eyes wide open* Salmon and cod fish!?!?
Him: Yeah.. You make sure you eat a lot of them so that the baby can get the nutrients etc.
Me: You know those are pretty expensive fish right?
Him: Yeah, I know. For baby okay what!
Me: Ooooh. Like that let's start making babies shall we?HAHAHAHA.
Him: Gila!

07 September 2016

Dear Future Husband.

Alert: This may be too sweet geli for you, so you don't have to read it if you don't want to. Heh. When I say 'you', I meant other people okay. Not you, Adrian Koay. You have to read finish all. In fact, you should read a few times and memorize it in your heart :)

I had no intention whatsoever to post something like this here, but I have been feeling very love-y-ish lately as we count down to the big day. I have no idea why.

That and also stress-eating which explains why my tummy is growing and there is no baby in there. Stress-eating is a serious disorder people. I need someone to take my stress away and just stop craving for foods that are not good for the soul! Ah!

Actually I think it's because of the food-tasting dinner that we had last night with our families that made me all so gooey inside. It felt as though we fast-forwarded time and there we were, sitting next to each other, holding hands under the table with occasional pinching because this has got to be a dream.

Anyways, here goes a piece of my heart in this personal space.

The four years of date-ship has been nothing but a roller-coaster ride. I bet you were expecting that I would say 'nothing but amazing'. Hah.

The truth about our relationship is it is not always amazing. We have so much ups and so much downs that if it's in an equation, it will probably be the same amount.

It is not always amazing because how can it be amazing when we were both shouting at each other that even Papua New Guinea can hear us. How can it be amazing when we both didn't want to talk to each other because of yet another fight? How can it be amazing when we both would argue on what color teh toilet carpet should be?

Nope, it is not always amazing. I bet if it is always amazing, we would get bored pretty quickly, because everyday we would be feeling just so amazing, all the time.

It has been and still will be a roller-coaster ride because:

You will lose your cool and utter words that you don't mean once in a while during an argument.
He - 0, She - 1.

I will give you the undeserved silent treatment that I know tortures to the very core of your being.
He - 1, She - 1.

I will give you leg and hand massages after your floorball/futsal/badminton/footbal games.
He - 1, She - 2.

You will go out of your way at times to get food that I crave for. Hopefully this continues when I get pregnant okay.
He - 2, She - 2.

We always have a great time laughing at zero-sense things or at each other.

You will always make a big fuss when I don't hold your hand.
He - 3, She - 2.

We never let a day go by (even when we argue) without saying 'I love you'.

You like to scan through my face to look for blackheads and pimples, and it frustrates me.
He - 3, She- 3.

You said you wanted 3 kids and I wanted 5, so we met halfway and decided to have four.

I love touching your one-pack belly because it annoys you.
He - 4, She - 3.

You got very angry with me when you found out that I'm still driving with an expired license and that I did not bother to change it.
He- 5, She - 3.

I would suggest something and you will immediately say no without a proper discussion, especially if it involves money. Boo.
He - 5, She - 4.

You do not discourage me on travelling because it's something that you love doing too.

You patiently helped me with my 'paranoia' and 'spontaneous mood-swings' that has no reason whatsoever.
He - 6, She - 4.

You always finish up the drinks without care to ask if I wanted some.
He - 6, She - 5.

I will always not wanting to wash the dishes.
He - 7, She - 5.

There. How can it be amazing when sometimes I have to do the dishes because you didn't want to? How can it be always amazing when I give you the silent treatment?

So, it is not always amazing. As much as I hate roller-coaster rides (for real), I enjoyed this one with you, and I don't plan on getting out of this one as long as you're in it too, hun.

I bet there is still so much of each other's horrible habits that we have yet to discover (which we will once I move in heh) and I'm pretty sure also that it will drive both of us crazy, but I want you to know that I love you and who you are in this relationship so there is no need to change okay.

Maybe a few things need to change la.

Like closing toothpaste cap okay, for real. I'm not kidding :)

I don't know what it's like being married to a best friend, but I think right it will be quite drama one. We are like so comfortable with each other that we may not have filters to everything anymore, from the way we sit to the way we pick our nose whenever and wherever we want so that is another adjustment.

So yes hun, I never thought that I would still be 'mold-able' by a person until you came. That's quite a miracle if I may say. Heh. No wonder people always say, 'better-half'.

You are definitely my better-half.

And since I'm a girl and I have to go through all the pain to give you little Koays, that's extra 2 points for me, so He - 7, She - 7.

Win for both :)

#kiasuwifealert

Love you bro.

Bye now. 

04 July 2016

Hello July.


July has started and I am not ready to have second part of the year yet.

Too many things on the plate now. 

It is getting a bit more exciting because our invitation cards are going to be out soon so that's pretty huge and time-consuming.

However, I am so ready to be married to this man despite feeling that time passes too fast. I cannot wait to live with him but also not really looking forward to leave my parents and my house.

It is going to be an emotional battle when September comes so we shall see how. 

I decided to blog today because we have exactly

2 months
2 weeks
2 days 

to signing the paper and seal half the deal.

This is by far going to be the most important signature I will ever have to sign. There is no turning back anymore once it happens, so we better be super sure that we both want to spend the rest of our lives together. Till death do us part.

I always tell him that I want to go Heaven first before him because I will not be able to cope living alone without him on earth because it will be too painful. How selfish I know. Hah.

Oh wells.

A girl gotta do what she has got to do.

01 January 2016

In Loving Memory of Frankie Koay.

I finally got some time to sit down and think of what I want to write for this special someone. It has been three days since the passing of Adrian's daddy. It's afternoon now on the second day of the funeral and friends/families usually do not come at this hour so I find myself a corner furthest away from the small crowd under a canopy that shields the deadly sunlight from my already-char-huey-tah-skin. 

If I may be real honest here, I would like to share some raw thoughts on Uncle Frankie. No one has ever known or heard this from me. Not even Koay. 

When I first met Adrian's family, I was excited and nervous at the same time. Prior to to the meet, I know that his family practices Buddhism and I never have a problem with that. My only struggle (at that time) was knowing that his dad was a bit against Christianity (reasons will not be mentioned here of course) and I am a Christian so yes, I was afraid that our relationship may not be approved or receive their blessings because Adrian and I have different beliefs (at that time before Adrian encountered Jesus) and yes I was scared that his parents will not like me as much. 

I was wrong. From day one, Uncle Frankie has treated me like his own daughter. Whenever we have family dinner, he will always suggest More More Thai (our favorite Thai restaurant) because Adrian told him that I'm a big fan of Thai food. Even when he is tired, he will still make the effort to play few rounds of mahjong whenever I'm at his house. I'm blessed for sure.



Read on, the best part is coming :)

Uncle Frankie has always been a healthy person despite having to go through dialysis three times a week. He had always eat rightly and exercise whenever he has the energy to. Can you believe it that he has gone through the 4-hours-of-dialysis for 11 years now?

It is sad that this time when a bacteria infected him, his body was too weak to fight against and that led to many other complications. It is heartbreaking, but I know he is now safe with Jesus. He is most likely dancing and singing with the angels in Heaven now. Party all day long. Heh. 

When Adrian became a Christian years ago, his dad was one of those people that he felt/thought will not be so approving of this decision. Turns out, his dad was the most supportive and even followed him to church a few times. Even then, Uncle Frankie remains a Buddhist. 

Adrian prays with his dad and mom every night before they go to bed and that has been a culture that both his parents adapt with. So, normally they will always gather either in the living room or his parents room to pray then they will say goodnight and I love you. 

His parents, most supportive bunch ever. 

When Adrian first asked his dad if he could go through the water baptism, his dad answered him, "Maybe not yet." So, Adrian waited for about another year and asked his dad again. This time, his dad gave the permission and both his dad and mom attended his water baptism and rejoiced with him. That was a memorable day. 

Did you know that on the day we bid the final goodbye to Uncle Frankie, the day his body was turned into ashes, that was also the same day Adrian was baptized, exactly a year ago? Talk about God's perfect timing hah. 

Anyways, when Uncle Frankie was admitted into the hospital, he was in and out of consciousness every now and then and his body was weak. There was one morning where he woke up and told Adrian to gather his mom and sister to be at the hospital. 

As soon as they came, he had asked for their permission to accept Christ as his personal Savior and then Pastor Joseph came and led him on a sinner's prayer. He also went through water baptism okay. This is an amazing story because Uncle Frankie used to be known as someone whom doesn't like Christianity. You cannot even mention about it in front of him. 

Despite all that, he had asked to accept Christ and now we all know he is in Heaven, painless. 

Death is never an easy chapter, especially when it's someone so important to you. 

Hi Uncle Frankie, 

It's been a blessing to me and my family ever since we knew you about three years ago. I am so thankful that my friends even got the chance to know you when they all went over to the house for CNY gathering. 

I am very sad that you won't be there when Adrian and I make our vows, or spoil our children like any grandparents would. I am very sad that I never got the chance to call you father and be a good daughter in law. I am very sad that my children will never get to feel your hugs and kisses and know you like how Wallace and Chloe did. 

But it's all okay because I know that you are where God wants you to be, in His arms with no more dialysis and no more tubes in and out of your body. 

We miss you and we always will. We will see you again in Heaven one day :)

Singing off, your daughter in law to be.




26 November 2015

Engagement Dinner For Two.

In the midst of all kinds of moments and seasons, one thing that helps me calm down (literally) is this: blogging.

It may be on random things like this one and this one and this one and this one. Just as long as I blog. So, it could be anything under the sun, moon and stars. 

Recently however, I've noticed that I've been posting a lot on the recent-status-change. Don't blame me okay. It is really a big moment for me, for us. Okaylah, don't know much on the impact for him but at least for me, it seems like everything changed. 

I think the very moment when he posted that YES! SHE SAID photo on Facebook and Instagram, his friends immediately already knew what they were going to do for his bachelor party. More like, where they wanna have his bachelor party. Hangover Part 4. GGDOTCOM liau.

Anyways, for me it was breathtaking. Yeah, I literally forgot to breathe that few seconds and every now and then. The thought of becoming someone's wife in less than a year scares me actually. Not in a really bad way. I don't know. 

I take marriage very seriously and I know once I'm in it, there's no way out. It's really going to be till death-do-us-part and I strongly do not agree with divorce under any circumstances at all. 

I guess because of that, I tend to want to talk about it a lot because I am super excited for it. If you're not excited for me, then you no good friend lah okay. KIDDING!

Anyways, we wanted to celebrate our engagement and remember that day when it happened but because money is something that we cannot simply spend and something that we don't really have (at the moment), we decided that we will not do it with both sides of family. We wouldn't want to celebrate big and pay for a dinner with money that we do not have. Heh. 

So, we decided to have a candle-light dinner together. No candles obviously because candle-light dinner is way too serious and quiet. Hah. I tell you ah we're so not the fine-dine kind of people la. 

It didn't take long for us both to decide where to dine because this place is a place where we always looked past it and will never stop and go in eat. BECAUSE THEY ARE EXPENSIVE APPARENTLY.

And since this is an engagement dinner, we were like, "HOR EE LOK!"

Did you know that we actually postponed our dinner a few times already because both were not in the 'right mood'? WE TOTALLY DID. 

To know where we went for dinner, click sini pergi WhatTwoEatHere tengok. 

We decided to do it on a Monday because then the day started out to be exciting as we both will be thinking of the dinner so no blues. At least for me it wasn't blue. I don't think he ever has problems with Monday blues. He's too in love with the things he does. Hm. 

Anyway, we also made it a point to dress-up for this dinner because it's a big night okay. So, after work, changed into a dress and put on nice make-up and wore heels. Mood also was right so best giler ya. I think he saw that I wear so nice d then only he quickly change to another shirt in the car. Heh. 



He brought flowers before dinner. No, seriously he did. HOW ROMANTIC CAN.

He called for booking earlier and requested for a romantic corner and guess where they placed us? 

Right next to the window, which was perfect I guess except there was no view also. It basically sees the main road and carpark. Heh. But what other view do I need since I have my lover in front of me, right? HAH! GELI!




We dined and wined and talked about everything other than the wedding planning because that could end up in either two ways. 

One, we will end the topic realizing that there is a lot of work to do and bring to ourselves the extra stress that we don't want during dinner. 
Two, we will set the mood off because we will reach to yet another junction and both will 'argue' till we agree to disagree in the end, and boy you wouldn't want to be with us when we are at that junction because the debate is endless okay and loud. Hah.

So yes, no wedding talks. Just us and pointless topics. 

Then, after that we went to our potential-wedding-ceremony venue and walked around. It's so beautiful at night oh goodness. Too bad our wedding ceremony is going to be in the morning. Heh.

Oh right. At first, we didn't want to talk about the wedding right? So, we went to that place and still did not really talk about it. We just kinda stood there and looked at it and smiled. 



I think we both tried to imagine the whole ceremony in the back of our heads at that place. As much I want to reveal where that place is, Muthu suggested that we wait till we get confirmation on the venue then only reveal! Ahhh, the suspense I tell you. 

All I can say is the place is AMAZING, DREAMS-COME-TRUE-HERE, IT'S-OUT-OF-THIS-WORLD AND IT'S WHAT WE'VE IMAGINED OUR WEDDING TO BE AT.

Okay, I may have just increased all your expectations on this place and if it turns out not so great for some of you, the feelings sure horrible. Okay, you know what? JUST WAIT FOR THE REVEAL! COMING SOOOON! :)

After like 10 minutes there, it started drizzling and we decided to go home and rest. I took the longest shower while he plays with his Samsung (pfft, change to iPhone already please) and was in my most comfortable jammies. Oh my, nothing beats that. 

My hair all tied up, I have bedak on my face and we shared a bottle of Somersby, while watching Masterchef Australia. Well, I watched the Masterchef. He? He was watchin Youtube with his phone on funny videos or something. But still best kind of night. 


Four years ago, I would not have seen myself here to be with this weirdo. I do see both of us as best friends for life kind of thing but who would ever thought that we both would fall for each other. Yes, you obviously liked me first as much as you want to deny that, Koay. Heh. 

Now, I have about ten months before everyone starts calling me Mrs Koay, which by the way is so weird! I may correct them and ask to call me Sarah instead. Muahaha.

That's it on our engagement dinner that we had, and may we both continue to be as true/real to each other as we are now (except for digging nose in the car :P) with each other.


*raise wine glass* TO MAY MORE YEARS AHEAD OF US!

16 November 2015

Will You Marry Me : His Side (Part II)

Adrian Koay signing in..

Before you continue with this post, please read my Part I first boleh? Her part also you can go read first if you want..

The wait for this backpack trip felt really long. Our 12 days trip to Vietnam, Cambodia and Thailand needed a lot of planning in advance just in case you didn't know. 

The funny thing was, Ryan Yeoh and Naomi Mair both asked me if I was going to propose to Sarah during the trip. Terkejut for a moment.  

Then recently, I asked both Ryan and Naomi what made them thought like that. 

He said, "Because you rarely go on a holiday, usually Sarah go only one!"

Then, when I asked Naomi, she just said, “I got a feeling laa…”

So, Andrew and I tried to find ideas on how to propose during the trip. Then Andrew found in google saying things like Angkor Wat is one of the most romantic places in the world to do a proposal. At first, I doubted it because I didn't want Sarah and I to be both sweaty and dirty during the proposal. 

But after that, I thought why not? We are rugged like that. 


Hot sun, sweat and rough adventures are all bits and pieces of our relationship. 

The plan in the end was to go with the flow. When the timing and setting is chun, just hor ee lok! Bend down and pop the question!

Few days before Sarah, Carmen, Jack and I left for Ho Chi Minh, I met up with Andrew secretly to pass the ring work-place. Also, at the same time, to pass him the Thai Baht and USD that we change for him and BeverlyBoth of them will meet us few days later in Ho Chi Minh because they have got to work. 

After passing the proposal ring to him, on my way back, I felt that something felt missing from the whole thing. So chun right, there was florist shop in front of me, so I stopped and got some roses that will last for a lifetime a.k.a. fake/plastic roses so that the rose can complement the ring. 

Oh ya, the only reason I chose to pass the ring to Andrew was to make sure Sarah doesn’t suspect anything of course. Since she likes to put things and take things from my bag, I cannot carry the ring with me, at all. Teehee.

Holidays started in Vietnam. Banh mi, pho, raincoat, coffee. Andrew and Beverly joined us two days later and he has this tukao pouch over his shoulder the whole entire time, even when he sleeps. 

Inside, the 2R. 

Ring and Roses. 

Throughout the trip, Andrew and I made a lot of those “jeng jeng jeng, you know, I know, she doesn’t know” eye contact. 

Then we stopped for few nights at Phnom Penh before heading to Siem Reap! 

The night before the proposal, Jack and Andrew kept asking me. 


“Are you ready to be a man tomorrow?” 

My answer every-time was always G!

G here, G there. GG everywhere.

We woke up really early that morning as we wanted to catch the sunrise at Angkor Wat. When we got there, there were like thousands of people standing beside the lake already. I was thinking, there must be a nicer place than that. 

To propose in front of so many people would be awkward! We walked around there but it didn't look like there was going to be another place that we could see the sunrise perfectly. 

Then, I decided that we have to do it there, by the lake. To make it not so obvious, I asked Sarah to take picture of us laughing at those people waiting for the sunrise beside the lake!



Then we headed towards the lake where the crowds were.

Not long after that, we heard people around us started saying “Woahhhh!"

Then I was like, this is it! All I need now is chun timing? So CHUN! 

When the sun came up, what everyone did was take picture right? You know la, Sarah Khoo surely wouldn’t want to miss her instagram-worthy pictures one! So, she decided to join everyone else and went ahead by the lake to snap all the shots she could.



Then Andrew signaled me. 


HOR EE LOK! 

And I did!

Knelt down on one knee on the muddy side of the lake, looking upwards for the big monster in front of me to turn her head over. No ,she did not turn back despite me calling her a few times. She was too into getting that perfect sunrise photo. So, I (actually it was Beverly's voice that she heard) called her name again and again, of course with the shiny thing on my hand. 

Tiok cheh kia terui dia!

So, I asked her the QUESTION! 


WILL YOU MARRY ME?

And I heard nothing from her.. 

She just kept closing her face or mouth nya. Then she nodded.  So I put on the ring on her second finger from the left of her left hand which was shivering pretty badly. That's when I realized that my hands were shivering too. The rest is… 


GGDOTCOM


Adrian Koay signing out..

08 October 2015

Will You Marry Me? : Her Side.

Oh yes everyone, I am now promoted to another status. No longer in a relationship according to Facebook, but is now engaged with my best friend. *smiles widely*

I thought that it will be fun to know from both sides in regards to this engagement thing. I will share first since he's going to take forever to write it out, and please please appreciate his post more because the deal for him to tell all  the details is for me to give him a massage. ONE HOUR MASSAGE. If you don't know, one hour of massage is super long when you are the person massaging, not if you're the one being massaged.

So, please do read many many times because it comes with a price. Heh. 

I can't say entirely that I did not see it coming because we did talked about getting married and stuff so I kinda know that it will happen, but it didn't occur to me that it was going to be this year! If you remember not too long ago, I blogged about The Perfect Proposal Ring, where I share about the openness we both have when it comes to getting that 'perfect ring'. 

I never knew that he had already bought the ring in July because in August and September, actually right up to days before our backpack trip begins, he was still bringing me to shops to look for rings. Sneakily showing me different designs of diamond rings to see which one I would prefer more when all this while, he had already gotten the perfect rock. Hah. Sneaky ah Muthu.

Many people asked me if I had any suspicion that he would pop the question during this backpack trip, and honestly, the answer is no. 

120% no. 

It had NEVER occur to me that there is any chance at all that he would be proposing during this trip, well since I thought he still hasn't buy the ring and we have friends travelling together and my ring is still probably lying around in one of the shops at Queensbay Mall. Mainly because of the ring.

And probably because he also 'accidentally' showed me a Whatsapp message to a very good friend of his, saying things like 'he would most likely only propose next year'. So, okay lah. 

Now that I'm writing down this, I realized what a sneaky boy he is. Dropping these kind of hints so that I do not suspect anything. He's good. 

So, I was ready to face the question at the end of the year to next year. NOT IN SEPTEMBER! AND DEFINITELY NOT WHEN WE ARE TRAVELLING!

Some people said to me, "For sure you suspect or expect a little bit since it's all girls' dream to get proposal during travels.."


Errr. Not for this case. Seriously not for this case. I don't know why it never crossed my mind that he MAY ask during the trip. I think its best to say that if he had not shown me all that sneaky hints, I probably would have suspected big time. So, he did really good in covering up I have to admit.


I used to tell him to plan the proposal with my sisters because if he did it on his own, I probably would be able to predict when he was gonna ask. Heh. Wrong me. SNEAKY!


Ohh and I think maybe also because he purposely asked me to pack his bags with him to maybe like show me that there is no ring in there! Hah. Not that I was aware of it, because I really thought he was only gonna get it end of the year. Wahhh, feel so cheated wei. HAHAHA! Luckily I never choose a ring that I like, if not he sure sad that he got the different design for me. To be honest, at every visit we did to the ring shop, I never found any that I like and it's most likely because I'm not a diamond ring kind-of person (well, I am now! Heh). 


So, when he finally gave me the ring, it was instant love. I have never seen such ring before. Okay, I will share on the ring on next post. 


Anyways, we were travelling to Siem Reap and Angkor Wat is one of the must-visit but it costs 20USD per person. We thought it was quite pricey but in the end, we went for it because hello, we went all the way to Siem Reap already okay. 


It was quite funny because when we walked into Angkor Wat, there were hundreds of tourist flooding the front of the lake, waiting for the sun to rise, while the rest of us just roamed around the ruins and thinking to ourselves if we should ave joined the majority. Heh. We did. 




I shall not give the details (or show the video) because he wants to keep them for the wedding day. Even photos also I'm not allowed to share okay. So the very sad punya case. Our parents also hasn't got the chance to watch the proposal video. 

Maybe I can just say that when my name was called a few times, I didn't smell anything fishy and that turn-behind moment was really a crazy one. I looked at Andrew, Beverly, Jack and Carmen to confirm if this was really happening. They all stood there, along with the hundreds of tourists (some obviously have no reason to care about the proposal since the sunrise was too beautiful to not look at) with their phones and cameras at us. It was insane. 




I turned and my life, changed.

There he was, right in front of me but shorter than me because well, he was already on his knees.


I looked at Adrian and realized that my smile became so permanent on my face that no matter what I do, my face is still smiling. It was the craziest most shocking moment of life. I was so shocked that my whole body was shaking, according to Koay when he was holding me. 


It was insane. 



Will you marry me?

Me: Yeah!


HAHAHA! I know right., WHO SAYS YEAH TO THIS KIND OF QUESTION WEI?! It's like the most common sense answer to the question that changes your life and I said, "Yeah!" instead of "Yes!"


Girls, if I may share this with you is that no matter how ready you are to face a wedding proposal, you really cannot control the words you say when you are at your most vulnerable-out-of-your-control-situation. You just can't. No time to think eh. 


He did not hear my "Yeah!", so we kinda stood/kneel there not knowing what to do next. Hah.

Me: Should I wear the ring?
Him: Yeah!
Me: You must wear for me I thought?
Him: Oh isit? 

He stood up, took the ring and before he put it on my ring finger, he said,



You must say yes first!

HAHAHAHA!


Turns out, he actually did not hear the first part of "Yeah!" to his question so after that I said three times of "Yes!"


And we're happily engaged! 


Then, the crowd cheered a little bit, and we both couldn't stop smiling since then. As much as I want to show it to you guys, I just gotta tahan now and show you all laterrrr. 




I felt so shy at that time because I really thought that he was only going to propose in a very private environment, probably only the two of us or with some close friends and family. THIS WAS WITH HUNDREDS OF TOURIST FROM ALL AROUND THE WORLD.

So yes, I was super shy. So not me please and my emotions at that time was not controlled by me obviously. 


Thank you guys for your well wishes and your congratulations' notes to the both of us. We are very blessed to be surrounded by you all :) 


Stay tuned for his side of the story, he sneaky sneaky boy. 
No longer calls him the boyfriend can.