After being silent for a week, I am back.
I want to convey my deepest heartfelt condolences to Pastor Heok Cheow, Judson, Joyce and Jesher in the passing of Aunty Ean Beng.
One of my fondest memories with Aunty Ean Beng was back in the days when we would always hang out at Pastor's house, have dinner and just coffee. Aunty Ean Beng will always sit at the steps and we would always share Judson's embarrassing moments. I've known Jud since 10 years old?
Wow, it's been 16 years huh. Crazy times.
We will always laugh at Judson because of the things he did last time. I guess that made me talk to Aunty Ean Beng more. Knowing her more than just a Pastor's wife.
Once, she saw that I was taking some cili padi on the table and she asked if I love having them in my meals. I told her that it wasn't only me, both my parents are also crazy over it. Since then, everytime her cili padi plant had its products, she would always give them to us in a small see through container.
Oh! Not to mention how delicious her homemade peanut butter is!
Also, the day when we visited her at the hospital, she remembered everyone's names and what they do and stuff. On the way home, Koay told me that he was very shocked to see that Aunty Ean Beng remembered him. Someone who doesn't see her often at all. Maybe a few times only.
I miss you, Aunty Ean Beng. It's still very surreal that you have gone home. I know we have never say this to you but we love you. My family loves and prays for you. We are glad that you are no longer suffering. Thank you for being the person you are. Your life have wowed so many people. Mine included.
I don't know how it must have felt like to lose someone so close to you. I cannot and don't want to imagine.
Judson walked to the coffin and as he lay the flower on top of it, his hand remained on the flower a while and I saw his lips moved.
"Bye Mom.."
This scene is engraved in my mind since. Everytime I think of it, my eyes get wet a little, like now..
I know they probably have heard "Be strong!" many many times. I wanted to say it but I guess it's not going to be that easy..
To Pastor Heok Cheow, Judson, Joyce and Jesher,
Know that we are praying for you everyday. For comfort, strength, peace and joy. Know that we love you and we will always be there anytime you need us. ANYTIME.
Till I see you again, Aunty Ean Beng.